Not today....

Driving home from work was the worst today. I cried the whole way home; I listened to the CD of the service; I was aggravated with the rain; I missed Laurie so much; I called her cell phone (which the police still have) to hear her voice and cried some more...no blogging for me today. I just want to keep crying...

I walk in the door and there is the tidy pile of mail. More heartfelt condolence cards and a package. In the pile of cards is a note from my grandaughter Brooke, probably her first to me in 2 or 3 years. She explains it is written on stationary that Aunt Laurie had given her several years ago with a note saying to use them to write notes of encouragement to the people you love. She encouraged me.

I open the package. It is an amazing letter from a fellow Harper student who decided to come to the wake and her relationship with God became revived through what she saw and heard there! She is a song writer and has written a song to honor Laurie for when, not if, she becomes famous. She will include it and dedicate it to La.

And then the rain stops and the sun is beaming. I know the drill; put your back to the direction of the sun and you may see a rainbow. Did you see it? It was so beautiful, an arc of brilliant colors. Our neighbors were actually coming out to see it!

Thanks, God. Today you turned my mourning into, well, not exactly dancing, but at least smiling.