June 17th...
In the big picture, today is not that big a deal but I still remember. Today would have been Denny's and my 38th wedding anniversary. Doing the math, 18 years married to Denny, almost five years a single mom, 16 years married to Pete. And no regrets about any of it. Had I not been married to Dennis, I would never have had all these amazing kids I am so nutty about. On what would have been our 25th wedding anniversary, Greg and Cheryl sent a beautiful bouquest of flowers and reminded me of their love. Very, very thoughtful.
I am reminded again and again, that through life God makes a way. God led me: through the divorce, He made a way. Through the loss of Lin, He made a way. And He continues to lead through the loss of Laurie. I pray that I listen to His leading in the big and small things. One big thing that I even hesitate to speak of yet but will anyway, is a chance to speak at a women's conference in Florida in September. The conference website is www.somethroughthefire.org and the invitation came from a wonderful Christian woman, counselor, mother of ten who has read these blogs. How humbling even to be asked. Yesterday I worked at the Willow Creek Association Arts Conference and told a friend there about this and she was ecstatic and so affirming. All righty then...
I also am so excited about something that happened when Mandy was down in Florida. She has a beautiful blog entry about meeting little Scarlet who has the same disease Mandy has and is also confined to a wheelchair. It was no coincidence they met; it was a divine appointment. Mandy, you rock, girl. I will see you Monday, June 20th at grief support and we will celebrate your neato mom!
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Hi Barb. You don't know me but I feel like I know you a bit from your blogs. I work in Children's Grief Support so have met some of your beautiful grandchildren. I only started reading these blogs a few days ago, mainly to gain insight into how you all were doing. I thought perhaps it would help me to serve your grandchildren (and indirectly you) better. I was totally blown away by the way your family has been able to journal and could not help thinking that perhaps you should write a book or speak at a conference or something. I was not surprised to then read today that you had been asked to speak at a woman's conference. I want to affirm that God will use your words to bring hope and healing to others. I also want to let you know that it is okay not to do this now, if you are not ready. Going public puts a lot of added pressure on you to feel you have to live up to someone else's standard. I want you to be free to feel and act or be whatever you need to be. I don't know how God is leading you and would not presume to tell you what to do but please feel free to say yes, no or maybe later. God will work through you and in you and in fact, already has. Praying for you and your family, Kathy
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