S.A.D. Seasonal Affective Disorder
I had never even heard of this disorder until after Laurie's death. It is real. People are truly affected by the winter "doldrums", the prolonged cold winters, lack of sunny days. And right now, I know lots of people suffering from S.A.D.
Like Drew, like Katie, like Pete, we are lurching forward to the 2nd anniversary of Laurie's death. Did she suffer from S.A.D.? Maybe. Do I? I don't think so but I do feel this dark sinking feeling when I let myself think I will never see Laurie again this side of heaven. I will never hug that sweet girl again. Oh, I miss that!
But I get these glimpses, these little reminders of the wonder of her. Her smell when I spray on her perfume. Her image from the many pictures we have of her. The impression of her the other day when I came home from work and there is Maya sitting at the kitchen table wearing a pair of big round glasses. The way the flip flop rhinestone encrusted air freshener that hangs in my car reminds me of her.
Hug someone today. Tell someone they are important to you. Give them a reason not to be sad. Be Laurie today and burp the alphabet.
posted by Barb K @ 11:22 PM
5 Comments:
I had forgotten what great burps Laurie had. Thanks for that reminder. I love you lots! Stay warm in this crazy weather.
Barb...just thought I would let you know that Annie had a baby boy this morning....blizzard and all. Yes...this is our 5th grandson. AT this rate, we will have a team of our own. His name is Grayson DeVere Hart, named after Brian's Dad. He was 7 lbs. 10 oz. and 20 inches long. The Lord really knows how to brighten my day. I too suffer from what I call seasonal depression. I'm miserable with dark, dismal winter days.
Hope all is well with everyone.
In His Love,
Eileen
Barb, Thanks for your blog. I do get seasonal depression. But, I am so glad I have mountains to look at. Guess who is at our house for a two day visit? MITCH. The walking miracle. He is on his way to IL for Power Plant work. It is so great to see him...Love, you...Gail
I was just thinking about Laurie and I thought I'd look and see how you've been and what's been on your mind lately. I don't think I've had seasonal depression because it's usually sunny in Azusa, but I'm sure one of Laurie's big bear hugs would still make me feel better. I miss you guys, and I pray that the weather and the time of year would bring a joyful spirit to you rather than a negative one.
Just a side note: I wrecked my car 2 times while I lived in Chicago. Both times, I called Laurie and we went to a movie, which she payed for. She would cheer me up and remind me that "it's just a car." I that idea has served me well throughout my life.. that the things of this world are temporary, and not worth having a bad day over. Thanks for raising your daughter in the way that you did. She was such a beautiful spirit.
- with much love
Bowman
I was just thinking about Laurie and I thought I'd look and see how you've been and what's been on your mind lately. I don't think I've had seasonal depression because it's usually sunny in Azusa, but I'm sure one of Laurie's big bear hugs would still make me feel better. I miss you guys, and I pray that the weather and the time of year would bring a joyful spirit to you rather than a negative one.
Just a side note: I wrecked my car 2 times while I lived in Chicago. Both times, I called Laurie and we went to a movie, which she payed for. She would cheer me up and remind me that "it's just a car." I that idea has served me well throughout my life.. that the things of this world are temporary, and not worth having a bad day over. Thanks for raising your daughter in the way that you did. She was such a beautiful spirit.
- with much love
Bowman
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