Right now...

Hmmmm... I have just come home from the 30th Anniversary party for some wonderful friends we know through church and PADS. One of their sons was in my house group in Student Impact, Mike. Not only were we guests, Pete was the DJ. I was marveling at how Mike has matured, how Sue and Lee were so cute with each other. When it was mentioned that Sue and Lee were 18 and 21 when they married, I felt a pang...that was exactly the age Denny and I were when we married. And we made it 18 years before we crashed landed in divorce. And tomorrow, March 4th would have been Pete's and my 17th wedding anniversary. (We changed our wedding anniversary, to May 5th, Cinco de Mayo. With Laurie missing last year on our anniversary, we just could not keep that date to celebrate.)

Today has been a tough day. The planned activities for the one year anniversary are over. How do I step up to the plate and move forward? Is grieving over? Have I left the House of Mourning? Not by a long shot. But do I have reason to go on living? I do. I have a great husband, a great family, unbelievable friends...and above all, a Father in heaven who is cheering me on. Tonight I will sleep well. Tomorrow, a new day.